the warmest color

Patience is something I've been working on, seemingly for a while now.

Sometimes I get caught up in things, and I can hear it in my own voice when it's important to me. I've talked about this before but being deeply rooted in the passions of your life is something to be very grateful for. These are the facets that make you who you are. It takes some people a lifetime to find something that truly drives them.... they are masked by the chaotic noise that is life, and the easiest ally to lose track of time and what you're really living for.

Every hand I've ever held has held me down in some way or another, I was always grounded by my own willingness to harmonize while never forgetting what was most important to me. I'm trying to focus on being in "the now", and not worry about the wide eyes I have for the future, or the past for that matter. I've grown kind of cold to other people's feelings on this, because seemingly I had it all figured out for myself. I do have heart strings... as much as I'd like to forget about them. We are the sum of all the moments of our lives, this is what makes up who you are today- and not being able to forget some of those moments may feel like having water in your lungs, but there are crosswinds to this. Things in life that remedy all your predispositions, change.

All the cross winds of my life remind me of what has been and what is left to be in the future... It's a small thing but when I've got no where to be and my mind's not racing itself... there is something quieting my spirit and I'm breathing a little deeper in that moment. I have to consciously remember to have an open heart for the future... because I do believe love is the warmest color we'll ever see and I will continue to believe something wonderful is always about to happen... Just another reason to work on patience.