Baby Steps

Tonight I went to our Spring dance showcase which was excellent as always, I only stayed for the first unit where I saw two people I sold shoes to last weekend. I have a lot of homework to accomplish and little motivation besides the fact that after this week which I'm considering done by tomorrow, we have four weeks of school left. Thank you Lord. Until then... baby steps are all I can handle.

I had a big girl job interview/ very casual meeting with a friend in the corporate world last night... I would say it was a success, now am I ready to sacrifice everything for "the grind"? All I can see in my little head is the boiler room, in the mean time I'm only grinding coffee. Baby steps.

Fundraising for Africa is starting to get stressful, it's crunch time in every aspect of my life at the moment but in the next "moment" everything will end at once and I will be able to breath again! Baby steps.

I had a lovely Birthday, it's late to be saying this but I hadn't gotten around to it. I got to spend two weekends in a row with Tim (always a treat) and we spent the weekend in Charlotte eating outside and basking in the sunshine, he's in love with Birkdale Village, so much so that he's basically sponsoring me to move there... not financially of course but he could undoubtedly be a spokesperson for the apartment living portion of "the village".  So yes, we're on the waiting list but no, I do not think anything will become available in time or I'm at least going to tell myself that so I don't get my hopes up. I've enjoyed booming on my way home with my new stereo, I'm not awake enough in the morning to even notice it, I'm just focusing on breathing and not getting in a car accident before coffee gets involved. Baby steps.

This weekend I'm alone, Lily's off to Blacksburg and Sally's running the Cooper River Bridge run in Charleston. I have on call shifts but I know they won't use me so I'm taking a risk and driving to Greensboro to work there instead. This or that-this or that.

I'm discovering new things in Charlotte everyday, this really is a great city. Lately I've been really hard on myself for a number of things that have happened and I'm trying to move past them. I like to replay one of my favorite songs by Feist over and over again in my head and in real life. Enjoy.




There is so much past inside my present... and I'm sure a lot of other people feel the same way.